So today will be an interesting trip, because I am going to bring up something that I haven't discussed yet - mainly because I wasn't sure exactly how the other person felt and for some reason figured that was relevant to my feelings. Also I suspect, that I just didn't want to admit that I ended up in this place. But I have been discussing it with the other party and while I have been properly chastised for my presumptuous boy idiocy, things are a lot less unclear.
I will be admitting to my therapist that I have fallen for a brilliant, beautiful women who lives a million miles away.
We will also be discussing the latest chapter in the situation with my boys and my forthcoming trip to see them next weekend. As well as my new meds, which really seem to be coming together rather nicely.
And when I am done, I will try to work on a post about exactly what I am doing with my therapist's help and how that whole situation is working out. I have been rather reticent to go into it, because it is hard to explain and because it is hard enough to journal what I am actually learning about myself, as a result of the discussions with my therapist. But I do think it's important to go into that, given the focus I have put on the drugs. We'll see how it goes.
I am at the heart, a very foolish man - but I'm trying...